It makes me sad that someone can mess me around so much and I’m still willing to love them and stand by them.
How little respect do I have for myself? I’ve cultivated self love and self respect as soon as I realised I didn’t have any and this whole experience has shown I obviously didn’t try hard…
Progress of a painting
first go at using Sculptris.
I had A LOT of trouble around the eye area, which is why it’s very unfinished there! Every time I used the inverted draw tool, billions of triangles appeared and my computer would run incredibly slow. I’m really not sure what happened? tried to fix this using the smooth+reduce tools but this didn’t really help, much to my displeasure :(
Other than that, I’m pleased :) (I love his nose bunches <3)
I wish I could finish stuff and be consistent and clear instead of constantly muddled and confused. I don’t know where my head is anymore, I don’t understand my priorities and the reasons behind them.I’m frightened of losing everything